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The Dream about a Past Girlfriend
This occurred probably about five years ago or more. I recall that I was still employed at the time so the time frame would be correct. The dream itself I don't even remember much about, but the impact of that dream had a big effect upon me.
In the dream I believe I was at some event like a picnic or something that was occurring outdoors where people were eating. Faye, a woman with whom I had gone to high school and college was at this event. The dream presence of this woman was very powerful and I felt like there was a very strong psychic connection between us even though I had not seen or thought of her in many years. In the dream setting we were having a conversation, but I don't remember what we were talking about.
When I awoke I felt as though I had actually communicated in some way with Faye. The last time I had spoken to Faye would have been nearly thirty years previous to having the dream. She was living in Tennessee at that time and I presumed that she may still be living there. But after having the dream I sensed that she was somewhere near to where I was living in the Los Angeles area.
I felt compelled to find Faye because I was convinced that she was thinking of me and trying to find me. I began searching for her on the internet. I made phone calls to old friends to see if anyone knew what had happened to her.
My search turned out to be in vain and I eventually stopped looking so intently. Now and then I would check the internet to see if her name showed up anywhere. I figured she was probably married now and no longer used her maiden name. The intensity of my interest in contacting Faye waned, though now and then I do wonder about her and that dream.
Who Is Faye?
In reality Faye was never an actual girlfriend of mine. She was a year behind me in high school--in the same grade as my younger sister. My sister and Faye were somewhat friends, but not particularly close. I was in a few clubs with Faye so we did know each other.
Later, when I was in college, I discovered that Faye was living in an apartment near campus. She had also began attending the college where I was. One of my friends had been hanging out with her and we started going over to her apartment to visit. I was very interested in getting closer to her, but I didn't think she was interested in me so no relationship ever developed.
After I stopped attending the university I lost contact with Faye. Then about five years later I somehow got her phone number--possibly from my sister. Faye was now teaching ballroom dancing at an Arthur Murray studio in Knoxville. This seemed rather odd to me since Faye always seemed so quiet and shy. The years must have changed her. I called her and we had a brief phone conversation. We said that we would have to make arrangements to meet up sometime, but we never did and soon after that I left East Tennessee for many years. I never thought much about Faye after that.
A Surprising Revelation
Several years later my sister and I were talking about old times and people we had known and Faye's name popped up in the conversation. My sister told me that in high school Faye had a big crush on me. I chastised her for not having told me then as I would have liked to have known that. I realized that Faye could really have been my girlfriend if I had only taken action in that direction.
Still another several years went by and I had the dream. Suddenly Faye was back on my mind but in a different way. I felt like she was communicating with me for some reason. I had been happily married for a number of years at the time of the dream. Why that dream at that time I don't know. There seemed to be an urgency to the dream but it was never addressed as my inquiries to locate Faye were unsuccessful.
A year or two ago my sister told me that she had made contact with Faye and had her phone number. She said that Faye was now married and she didn't know that much else about her. Apparently my sister didn't pursue any further encounters with Faye.
Now with Faye's phone number in hand, I could contact her to see if she remembered having had any strange dream experiences involving me. Instead I chose not to. Since I was married and she was married I didn't want to become involved in any awkward circumstances.
Perhaps someday we'll run into one another and the topic can be brought up. The sense of connection was so powerful in the dream I feel like it could have been a situation of dream communication. Then again it might just be dreamer's nonsense. I may never know, but I'm still a bit curious.
Have you had a powerful sense about a dream that made you seek out old friends? To what would you most likely attribute dreams that seem like communications? Do you think it best that I did not contact Faye?